Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Lacking Motivation

I just seem to be out of lately.  I don't know if it's the restart of the school year and trying to really get into a schedule or if it was planning Karrie's shower that had my brain off track, but I should be over it by now, right?  The shower was Sunday and a success I think (even though I'm not real fond of the way I look in the group picture... it looks like I've never lost weight) and the school year is now in full swing, so I should be able to get back on track.  I even made a schedule of workouts for the months of August and September but I've barely stayed on track with that.  My plan is to make September a more successful month.

I did not go to weight watchers this week because when I got on the scale it was the same as the previous week.  No loss but no gain, so I'll take it.  I would like a loss this week.  I'm almost at 45 pounds lost and I think hitting that mark would help motivate me.  However, it is already Wednesday and I don't think I've been doing very well food or workout wise.  There were leftover cookies and mints from the shower and I've been snacking on those.  This is why I don't bake cookies very often, if they are around I will eat them and I don't have any willpower to stop.  I also haven't had great workouts until today.  Sunday in itself was a workout.  I was on my feet from 1-5 setting up the shower, hosting the shower, and helping clean up.  This includes hauling things back and forth (you know what I'm talking about!) and I was physically exhausted by the time I got home.  Because I didn't get any of my usual Sunday chores done, I did them all on Monday right after I left school.  I got groceries on the way home, put those away, ran and emptied the dishwasher (and reloaded it!), did 2 loads of laundry, put away all the clean laundry and vacuumed the whole downstairs area.  I literally did not stop moving until I picked up Josie at 4.  That night when I got in bed I could feel my throat starting to get sore...

Fortunately I have not gotten fully sick.  I'm hoping it is just a short lived, passing by, kind of cold.  I was so tired yesterday after school and since I had worked my butt off on Monday I decided it was okay to take a nap.  After all, if I don't rest I could get sicker.  I felt somewhat refreshed after that and then had to take Josie to the doctor for her 15-month check-up.  This was the LONGEST appointment ever.  I hate waiting at the doctor, especially with a toddler that likes to get into everything!  Luckily Don was off early because he had to go to the dentist and we were able to have an early dinner and then all go for a walk.  I thought I was up for the walk, but by the end I was struggling.  I felt weak and tired, so Josie and I went to bed early.

I feel somewhat better today.  After school, I forced myself to get on the treadmill (after another short nap) and I jogged 4 miles.  They were slower than I've been doing lately.  I'm trying to believe that I'll be able to run this 10k that's coming up but I haven't had many chances to get outside and I'm struggling to think I'll be able to run the whole thing and not feel like dying.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Busy Busy

Here's what I know:

- I was going to start this post 15 minutes ago but I just got a note that my nephew is in the hospital (Asher) so I was getting the scoop on that.

- I ran 6 miles this afternoon because I didn't get it done on my scheduled day (Sunday) because, well, life happens.

- On Saturday I went to WW (after a one week hiatus) and I was down 1.4, which makes my total since last June 44.2 pounds lost.  Only .8 from 45, and hopefully another 5 gone in the next month.

- Also on Saturday I went to Cardio Kickboxing because I didn't go on Friday afternoon (my scheduled day)... I was ready and showed up for the noon class but the only person in the room was the instructor so I chickened out and got on the eliptical for 20 minutes and then my legs felt like jello.  When I left I looked back in the room and there were 5-7 people in the class so I think I will try again knowing I hopefully won't be the only one.

- I have curriculum night tonight (aka open house) and I'm really tired and would rather hang out at home but oh well.  I hope I can just keep standing through the time I'm done after those 6 miles today!

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Sweaty First Days

Okay, I promised to blog on Sunday after my workout but time just got away from me.  Even right now I don't have much time... I should be in the shower so I can be clean when I go get Josie and I need to stop at Bucky's so I can by a lottery ticket even though I won't win because I have bad luck.

I'm also getting used to my new computer's keyboard which is not a full sized keyboard and I hit a lot of the wrong keys!

So I'm back at work and that sucked up a lot of my time this past week.  Full days of working plus getting up earlier than ever every day = tired, cranky, and hungry.  I prefer waking up later and having a late breakfast.  Then I'm not hungry and wanting to eat something mid morning to get me through to lunch.  This must be why it is so easy to lose weight in the summer for me.  I had gotten behind on my workouts but I'm back on track and I forced myself to run 5 miles last Sunday which just about killed me but I wouldn't give up.  This race is next month and I'm so not ready for it... However, now that I'm on my regular work schedule (half days) I will be able to fit in my workouts more often.  Even today... I got home, took a two hour nap (I was POOPED!) and then made myself get on the treadmill to run 3 miles.  My next scheduled workout is Friday - Cardio Kickboxing at 12:30.  I'm excited to be able to officially fit this class into my schedule.  Saturday I'm hoping for another run and then a longer run on Sunday (6 miles).

I just really need to get back on track food-wise.  It hasn't been horrible (I did say no to Chinese food last night at Don's suggestion) but I could really be better and I need to be.  As things slow down in the next couple weeks I'll be able to get back into a routine and have better planning!

Well it's off to the shower so I can get that power ball ticket!  And a fountain soda, which will probably bring me more joy than the ticket...

Thursday, August 2, 2012

Unreached Goals

To say the least, July wasn't a very successful month.  In fact, it was a pretty stressful month financially, especially near the end.  Mix in the stomach flu mid month, which got me completely off track, and it became a downward spiral.  I haven't tracked my food, I've barely worked out and I've had one too many treats (both sweet and alcoholic!).  I haven't even hardly weighed myself... but I printed out two calendars (one for August and one for September) and planned my workouts up through Karrie and Dan's wedding. 

Because of the stomach flu thing I got off my running schedule and never made 6 miles in July.  I tried this past Tuesday (the very last day of July) but it had been over a week since my last run and that last run was only 3 or 4 miles.  I started out slow and made it to 4 miles but I was exhausted so I stopped.  That was about 50 minutes including warm up and cool down and I averaged 11:30 minutes/mile.  I had scheduled myself to go to spinning the next morning but I was super sore from the previous day.  My hamstrings were torn up because they had already gotten used to not running.  So I took the day off - plus I had a dentist appointment in the afternoon which caused me anxiety throughout the day because I HATE the dentist, even for teeth cleanings. 

Somehow today I was able to get in a workout.  Today was actually scheduled to be a rest day but since I ended up taking that yesterday I knew I needed to fit in a workout somehow today.  My mom ended up having a doctors appointment in the afternoon and called when she was on her way home to see if I wanted her to watch Josie.  I'm sure her intention was to watch her so I could get some school work done but I knew I wouldn't be happy if I didn't get on the treadmill and try another run.  I did the same run as I did on Tuesday but just a little faster.  I started at 5.1 instead of 5.0 and bumped it up every ten minutes until I hit 5.5 and then I bumped it up every two minutes until I reached 4 miles.  The running was a total of 45 minutes, averaging under 11:30 minutes/mile.  I did bump the speed up to 6.0 at the very end to get to the finish line.  It's hard to believe that I used to run 6 miles at that pace.  It seems so fast now!  Anyway, my knees are sore now but I feel better.

Tomorrow I'm hoping to go the spinning class again in the morning.  Don is going to take the day off so I can go to school and work.  I figured I would try and get a workout in before I head to school.  This will make up for my missed spinning class on Wednesday and today's run will replace the run I had scheduled for tomorrow.  If I'm not too sore I'm going to try to go to cardio kickboxing again on Saturday morning.  I hope that I'm not pushing myself too hard - I would like to also get a 5 mile run in on Sunday (which will continue to be my long run day until the corporate cup).

I'm going to hang my schedule up so I can try and keep on it.... I think it will be easier once school really starts.  The only problem will be the first week back because I will be working full days until I go pick up Josie.  I'm going to try and fit in some workouts over the lunch hours since they sometimes can run long during these work days.  Now I just have to get re-motivated with the food.

I will try and be better about blogging... it's just been so hard with the punk kid lately!  If I'm at the computer she is whining to sit on my lap so she can get into everything on the desk.  But this too shall get easier as the school year starts and I have a little time to myself at home before I have to pick her up!