So my goals for July have not been going so well. Neither has blogging apparently!
I have a lot of things going on mentally which has not boded well for eating well or working out. Oh and I've had a sick child which left me home bound for two days (and searching in cupboards for crap). Although I wanted to make a pan of brownies (I happened to have all the fixings) I did not but I did polish off the remaining ice cream in the freezer. It was a low-fat ice cream, but I ate more than I should have.
One thing I've learned this summer: I should never be a stay-at-home mom. I have a new respect for those moms. No adult interaction during the day is maddening (at least when the kid(s) are sick and you don't want to take them anywhere for fear of them getting sicker). I never thought I would miss the squirrelly middle school students that often sent me off my rocker, but they are pretty humorous and fun and I'm looking forward to getting back to it next month. Now don't get me wrong, I love summer, but I feel like I haven't been able to do much and it's just a big waste. I've only been swimming once and that was to try Josie out in the water, which scared the hell out of her, so I haven't been back since. I also can't afford to go on a vacation which is something everyone thinks teachers do in the summer. I can't even afford a road trip - plus I'd have to find someone to watch my crazy dog and the idea of traveling with a one-year-old is not really appealing. Plus, I vowed to wean Josie this summer (which hasn't happened) and to get her sleeping in her crib at night and for naps... which also hasn't happened. Sometimes I feel like a mommy failure, like I'm doing something completely wrong, and everyone has advice (which I haven't really asked for) but it's easy to give it out and not easy to live through the blood-curdling screams my daughter is capable of right now.
Anyway, I'm vowing to make the week end on a better note. I haven't weighed myself since last Saturday (up .8) and I haven't really worked out since Sunday (5 mile run, but at a faster pace than ever). The ice cream is out of the house and I have the day off of motherhood (until 4) to get some stuff done, hopefully work out, and de-stress. I have the Color Run this weekend, a 5k, I'm not too concerned about the time just excited to become a real like rainbow! So hopefully this will help remotivate me to keep on the journey and at least end July with a loss of some sort.....
